Dwelling Place

This week marks ten years since the Deep Water Horizon oil spill washed onto Gulf Coast shores. In the days preceding its landfall, we smelled oily fumes in the heavy air of anxiousness and dread, a looming, unstoppable enemy of our environment and the economics of our area at the height of the tourist season. Authorities, unified against a common foe, planned and prepared, and coastal citizens waited. I stood on the beaches the day the first oil flats broke apart in the waves, watching skimmer boats attempt to remove flats of thick, foamy petroleum from the surface of the water, and mourning the loss of our beautiful beaches. Little did I know another disaster was quietly lurking, one my family was not at all prepared for. The next morning, my husband departed for work, kissing the back of my neck as I stood at the stove in my pjs cooking a hot breakfast for my two toddlers, the summer mornings a contrast to our busy school year ones. The pain struck quickly, low, and sh...

On November 30, 2005, Joe and I held the baby we prayed for and loved and had to say good-bye to too soon.  I had carried her for only 25 weeks, and she was stillborn in the quiet hours of the night and baptized and prayed over by my priest and friend and fellow new mother. Our first baby's name was Isabel Perry Boyles, and she was tiny and beautiful. She waits for me in Heaven in the arms of my grandmothers and hers.  Did  you   know  that? Maybe  you   know  because  you  sent  me  a note or brought us dinner, offered a hug, or stood on my front porch a week later holding out yellow roses as tears fell and no words passed. And I’ve never forgotten. Maybe  you   know  because we’ve talked about the hard road to parenthood, and her story came up. Maybe  you ’ve asked  me  where my passion for children comes from, and I told  you . Maybe  you   know  because we’ve s...